I dreamt I was riding a fast Euro train that was heading across countryside scenery… perhaps back to Rome, my heart skipped a beat at first. I felt excited to connect with my old lover, because even bad men leave an impression in your heart, but as the train moved rhythmically forward my urgency to engage with any and all love interest from my past completely vanished.
In my dream world I was experiencing a change of mind…It was vivid and clear and literally happened in the moment of my subconscious mind.
I found myself seated next to a man, with the bluest eyes, electric blue, bright and deep like the ocean. He was traveling with me and it seemed to might be feelings of romance between he and I, although at first we just sat side by side. It was extremely comfortable, I felt no desire to control him or his choices, not as if any decisions were to be made, we were simply traveling side by side, not even speaking, but yet I somehow knew in life outside the train’s car that I was safe with him.
During our journey we touched each other tentatively at first but as the ride went on we became closer and more intimate. We kissed and cuddled, and as dreams sometimes go, we didn’t seem to be on a train at all anymore.
We laid together. He on top of me, and I felt his weight on me, but not in a cumbersome way. We were not making love but simply rubbing each other in an embrace, holding each other.
I noted with curiosity how we could reciprocate so much love for each other communicated through touch alone.
The most memorable part of the dream was that I lovingly stroked his back and surprisingly he returned my gesture of love, literally something I have never experienced in real life. I've been loved by a man before, but this felt like something totally foreign. Magic, unconditional love, pure, weightless.
In that instant of requited love our hearts were sucked up and drawn to each other and the moment was cemented with a specific hard sound. Like very loud and permanent. The sound of a heavy vault door being securely locked, or even that ominous, dum dum, sound effect from ‘Law and Order’.
It was significant to me as a permanent bonding sound to be exact, and even more, as the sound effects played our heart chakras were completely open, the abundant love energies piercing each other with the brightest white light, I could feel it as if it were happening in real life, my heart was full of joy and the highest of ecstasy, a feeling of complete and total oneness lifting us together into the heavens. After the flash of light, still dreaming of course, I saw on a clock 11:11. There are many meanings to the significance of this number, but I read once that when you see 11:11 on the clock the universe is taking a picture of your thoughts to manifest your desires.. My subconscious concluded that it was with great hope that I did indeed want the universe to take a picture of this experience, of this joy I feel, because this is the reality I want to create.
I woke up and my heart was pounding still high and giddy in real life, trying to sort through what had happened, now I was in my waking mind. Every detail I could remember and I turned this delicious drama over and over in my thoughts all day letting it feed my heart.
Who this man is in real life I have no idea. We continue to meet in my dreams as we have for years now, our hearts connected in this lifetime and every other, forever, by choice of course, to love and be loved. He is my other half, the one for me, my twin flame.